You know I'm not dead You know I'm, you know I'm not dead You know I'm not dead Now you know where I've been As you sleep, torn I am Weighted down patiently Born of love You know, you know I'm not dead I'm just living in my head Forever waiting On the ways of your desire You always found your way And thru it all, into us all you move Forgotten touch Forbidden thought We can never have enough You know I'm not dead You know I'm, you know I'm not dead You know I'm not dead Far below the creatures scream Stranglehold, a god machine Begging to tear us out Worn as hope You know, you know I'm not dead I'm just tears inside your head Forever waiting On the ways of your desire You always found your way And thru it all, into us all you move Forgotten touch Forbidden thought We can never have enough You know I'm not dead We all want to hold In the everlasting gaze Enchanted in the rapture Of his sentimental sway But underneath the wheels Lie the skulls of every c.o.g. The fickle fascination of An everlasting god You know I'm not dead I'm just living in my head Forever waiting Forever waiting on cruel death You know I'm not dead I'm just living for myself Forever waiting You know I'm not dead You know I'm not dead You know I'm not dead You know I'm not dead |
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Recorded: November 1998-September 1999
Written by: Billy Corgan
Available on: Machina-The Machines of God The Smashing Pumpkins 2000 7 track Promo Stand Inside Your Love US Promo Rotten Apples (US Version) Rotten Apples (UK Version) Rotten Apples w/ Judas 0 (US Version) Rotten Apples w/ Judas 0 (UK Version)
Video Info: Directed by Jonas Akerlund. It is apparently a "performance based" and "stripped down" video featuring the band with Melissa Auf Der Maur on bass. Originally, the band had considered to have Jonathan Dayton and Valerie Farris as the director for the video.
Other Info: Originally just a radio single, but was decided to be the first video after the "Stand Inside Your Love" video had already commenced shooting. The decision was most likely due to it's high rotation on the radio, making it #4 on Billboard's Modern Rock Tracks by the third week of January. Originally called "Disco King".
Billy Corgan had this to say about the song in an interview with the Chicago-Sun Times in April 2000: "It has a lot to do with spirituality and trying to find my place in the universe and sort of humbly accepting limitations and the things I've been graced with. It's more of a humanistic world view. I'm not writing anymore for the tortured teen--both me and whoever was listening. I'm writing with the idea that everybody's experiencing these things all the time, and even if they're not experiencing them personally, they're affected by them. You can live in the street and write about the garbage, or you can try to get up a little higher and look down and try to see the bigger picture".
