I spin off and lose my head
Throwing stray a spark instead
Gather strength down in my heel
And dig it in the world I peel

Way down deep within my heart
Lies a soul that's torn apart
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I inhale
I don't give - I unveil
Don't want to live in your misery
I don't live - I inhale

Sprinkle all my kisses on your head
Stars full of wishes fill our beds
She said, "I'm dead"

All this pain smothers me
Like a bomb that you can't see
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I inhale
I don't give - I unveil
I don't live - I inhale
I don't live

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Recorded:
December 1990-March 1991

Written by:
Billy Corgan

Available on:
Gish
23 Minutes
Siva 12"(UK)/CD(Australia) Single
Peel Sessions
The Smashing Pumpkins 1991-1998 promo
Rotten Apples (US Version)
Rotten Apples w/ Judas 0 (US Version)

Video Info:
Directed by Angela Conway. Billy Corgan jokingly talked about the video saying, " I was 
taking all this LSD and I got all these LSD-type shots in it." It was the video that got the 
Pumpkins a spot on the Red Hot Chili Peppers Tour that year. (Source: The Long Strange 
Trip to 1979) A very strange video with the band playing with a kind in a darkened room
with strobe light, painted faces, Billy and Darcy sticking their heads up out of water in the
bathtub.Darcy with flower pedals on her eyes, and flower pedals all over the video, Siva 
statues,etc.

Song Secrets:
 (Peel Sessions) 
At 4:09, D'arcy says "Wait, I just stepped on my ?" then Billy counts to four for the loud
re-entry. -On the Peel Sessions version of Siva near the end Billy screws up and says 
"I don't live, I unvade" like he started to say unveil and then realized his mistake and 
finished saying invade. 

Other Info:
There was a very rare cd single for Siva in Australia. The closest thing to a single in North 
America was the Peel Sessions.